Why am I Killing Myself?

It is never just about food. Let me back up. I cannot lose weight. It’s not that I don’t want to but I am unable to. I feel like I am holding onto it as a safety net. Eating seems completely meaningless yet meaningful at the same time. I am slowly killing myself. Why? Is it because my husband cheated on me for years (emotionally, physically, and financially)? Is it because I cannot go of all the emotional baggage? What is it?

It’s Time

I love to read. A while back I came across a phrase that has stuck with me all thru life. “The opposite of love is not hate. It is indifference.” I seem to have arrived at a point in my life where I am indifferent to how I treat myself. I went into severe depression about 3 years ago and since then I have not taken care of myself. I don’t care what I eat; I don’t exercise. I am only 36 years old but I feel like I am about 50. I have to get out of this funk. And I am going to take control of the one thing in my life that I can control. My food. It’s time. It. Is. Time.

Celeb Homes for Sale | Jeff Bridges

I love Southern California living. The weather is absolutely perfect for indoor-outdoor living throughout the year and that helps maximize your living space. I stumbled upon these fabulous photos as I was browsing thru Architectural Digest this morning. I instantly fell in love with the meditation room. The house has a calm and neutral palette that adds to the peacefulness its surroundings. 81 32754

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Dreaming of Spring

With snow all around us and more storms on the way I have to dream of warmer temps to brighten the mood. I went online to “dream shop” and came up with a few essentials I could use right now.

Spring 2015

  1. You can never go wrong with a good moisturizer. Philosophy is one of the best.
  2. Madewell dress. Perfect for Spring to summer transition.
  3. Ray bans.
  4. Florals are in this Spring. And these shoes are super comfy.
  5. Kiehl’s Argan Oil. The best dry oil out there. (<– currently using!)
  6. The perfect bag. I die.

No affiliate links. Just a few things I would love to buy 🙂